Well, here I am. 20 years old. In college. Going for a degree that I am passionate about. 75 pounds overweight. In my second relationship ever. Given hell the whole journey here.
I'm 20...sounds great, right? I have enough worries and problems that I feel like I'm in my late 30s. If I'm lucky, my life might even out by then.
The college I'm attending was the last on my list of 8 much more prestigious colleges that accepted me. In a town I hate. With peers that I hate even more.
My degree is about the only thing that saves me. I have a horrible gpa due to many factors...some of which you may hear about later. I'm pursuing a bachelors degree in Materials Science and Engineering. I want to work toward a PhD in Biomedical Nanotechnology someday. "Someday" feels like it will never happen, thanks to several things that I like to call "Rosie-issues". I could write a book on Rosie-issues. Maybe someday I will.
Overweight...yeah...I've come a long way, I know. My senior year of high school my doctor looked at me and told me I had to lose 100 pounds. It was bad enough that I was already depressed and headed toward the edge overlooking the deep end, but you have someone tell you that you have an entire person's worth of weight to work off and tell me you take it lightly. 25ish pounds down, gained some back, still working to get the rest off and keep it off.
Relationships...I haven't been very lucky in the past, but this time I've found someone that I can hold at arms' length, and it seems to be working out nicely so far. He makes me happy. That's all I need.
I've run into the wrong crowd recently, and I've gotten into some things that I'm not too proud of. I'm not trying to "find Jesus" or "turn my life around". I'm trying to learn to accept the things I've done and love the person I'm becoming. I'm documenting my journey, here. Digital support, I suppose. Maybe someday I'll share what I write. Maybe not. For now, I just need to write it down. I don't think my friends could handle hearing some of the things I'll be writing about just yet. (To my friends and family that see this, consider that your warning.)
My goal on here is update at least once a week...how my classes are going, where my research is at, how my workouts are progressing, dieting info, etc. So...here we go. I want to see something drastically different by May. Hopefully that's what you'll see too.
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